Running the last leg of 2010

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Happy new year's eve!

Seriously time really passes too quickly. Can't it just take a break for me to catch up with it?

I've been feeling so drained the whole of December. Running errands all over Singapore, buying presents and thinking of ideas to brighten up people's day. Not to mention meeting up with all my lovely friends. All these give me a boost of adrenaline. However, amidst the drowning sea of work? It simply drains me.

I even thought of trying up to finish all my 2010 blog posts by the end of the year but it's quite impossible as I don't have the time to continue updating about August.

Just now I managed to get home early at about 10.45pm. If not for the throbbing head, I would not have left earlier. I savoured my hor fun dinner ever so slowly in front of the TV and realised that I haven't been catching my CSI for weeks. CSI Miami is already ending its season with a serial killer; I've since got lost in CSI Vegas; CSI New York had always been the one which I would try not to miss and I'm waiting for the new season to start.

So without working my mind too much, I just sat down and watch AXN and Star Movies till now. Pure simple pleasure.

Whenever I meet up with the different groups of friends recently, it's always a hurried affair as I'm constantly on the rush for the next activity of the day. Unless of course, you belong to the last group of activity for my day would I have spent a lot more time with you. The different groups would ask me what I've been up to as I sound really busy.

Work has been hectic due to the revamp of our curriculum. We are slowly losing speed and we're no longer doing our stuff 1 month in advance. While the rest of the working world is happily taking leave during this festive season, my dept has trouble clearing leave.

I was looking at my subordinates working hours the other time and they've been working between 45 to 50 plus hours per week quite regularly when our average weekly hours is supposed to be 42.5 hours! 48 to 50+ was what I was a few years back. I do not want them to be sucked into this whole vicious cycle and go through the same experience as me.

Nevertheless, there is only so little I could do to help. Maybe I should stop editing and making so many changes to the worksheets so we could all have lesser work to do. However, now that I have the manpower, I find it inevitable to change so many parts which I've longed to changed when I was doing a one-man show a few years back and then a pair-work thereafter when permanent help arrived. It's just in me to keep on trying to improve the the materials especially after I've browsed through the materials of some other companies in the same line. I just want ours to be the best as they can be for our targeted consumers. Sometimes when an idea hit me, I would just think of changing a whole part of the materials, thinking only of the benefits and not the cost of changing it.

Kh and I have yet to go on our honeymoon and we've been married for more than a year! I wanted Europe. He said I won't have time for it. I weighed my prioroties and spoke to my bosses about it and they gave me the green light to take a 3 weeks break if I want. But how can I when there's so much work to be done?

He's been wanting to go on a trip, a short one would suffice. We usually go on trips during January and not December as we hated crowds. He asked me for my work schedule so he could start locking those days in but I can't give him a definite answer. In the end, he just went ahead and took a week's leave.

I really don't want to disappoint him.

I just wish for the whole holiday season to end so I could fuel the engine again and start trying to clear enough in advance for me to go on a trip with a settled mind.

May 2011 not be such a bitch.

PS: Sorry for the rant and possible spelling, grammar, punctuation and expression problem up there. I'm typing whatever comes to my mind and obviously I don't think in perfect prose.