Sickly August

I was scrolling through all my August posts and I realised the entries were all about me being sick. So sian. I wish to blog about happier stuff but I’ve fallen sick AGAIN.

HATE HATE HATE my body!

On Sunday, I felt lethargic and nauseous so after my tuition, I decided to take a nap before going out to meet the FF group. The nap was horrible. I was coughing so badly that I rolled over to the side my bed and puked on the floor. My chest and tummy hurt so much that I just froze at that position. Then, I puked once more.

Later in the day and throughout the night, I was down with high fever. I was so weak that I’ve got no strength to sit up. If I sat up, I would hyperventilate and feel nauseous. Dissipated energy. Useless muscles. I felt like I was in a body that didn’t belong to me.

Now, my mum is one of those who always scolds me whenever I fall sick. This time, she was really worried. My body was so hot that she started sponging me with ice for fear that I would become stupid. My dad would pop in every now and then to check on me and to turn the towel the other side. Late at night, kh came and sayang me. He brought starfruit juice and I was lying down and drinking from a straw like an invalid. Kh said I’m such a spoilt brat whenever I’m sick.

Yesterday, I went to the same doc and she said it’s still the same upper respiratory tract infection. It got worse because of the unfinished course of antibiotics the other time. She said this illness needs 7 full days to recover. And when she said 7, she meant 7 days of complete rest. No strenuous work. Then she started talking about flu is no joke and 600 people in Singapore die from flu related illness annually blablabla…

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I caught Evan Almighty on Saturday. It was quite funny, I love all the animals as well as the actor starring as Evan’s oldest son. Most of all, I love this quote:

“Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient?

If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous?

If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?”

No wonder when I prayed for health, I became even sicker. God must be giving me the opportunity to wake myself up after my delirium, to warn me that I should start to worry about my health and not worry about work.

After I recover from this long illness, I will make it a point to:

- Go for a full body check up
My doc was advising me to take things step by step. First, recover from this illness, then go for body check up. No point doing all at the same time when I’m still sick.

- Visit a Chinese physician
My colleague and sister recommended the same Chinese physician all the way at Jurong. Heard that she can ba3 mai4 (check the pulse) and roughly discern what’s wrong with her patients. I’m also worried at the amount of western medicine I’m downing. It’s time to go for more natural healing.

- Visit a dentist
The gum near my wisdom tooth is swollen again even after I poked it to release the blood inside. My teeth could be one of the triggers for my frequent headaches.

- Put on more weight
People who see me everyday like my parents have started to comment that I’m too thin. My mum who used to see how much I eat and think I’m fat compared to all the mediacorp actresses has started to worry that I’m looking too skinny now. In fact, everyone around me who sees me every week will comment that I’m getting thinner and thinner as the weeks go by.

I don’t see myself as horrendously skinny because at least I know that I do eat my 3 full meals. Kh also doesn’t find me skinny because he always sees how I stuff myself with food whenever we go out. But well, if the rest of the world feels that I’m losing weight drastically, I think I’d better do something.

- I must sleep early
I’m insomniac. But I must force myself to sleep early next time.

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I feel so fresh after bathing and washing hair. Imagine not bathing for 3 days!!! YUCKS! Some things never change. I’m going back HQ for a while to finish my kindergarten materials. I hope I’m well enough for D&D tomorrow. I feel so weak I don’t think I’ll enjoy myself.

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