Captions are from Cyn mommy.
In ICU post Op on Saturday (28 May 2011)
Barely 48hrs post Op on Sunday. Showing me her trade-mark smile n peace sign. Still in pain and couldn't move lower limbs BUT she still smiles for me.
Plug on one hand, needle in her port-a-cath and swallowing medications like they are her daily meals... My little girl is unfazed. Shld have seen her look of determination when the needle was poked into her hand. NOT a single sound literally! No resistance. No shakes and trembles. She kept her hand as still as a statue, held her breath, shut her eyes closed with determination, a face of sheer concentration. Even I was in awe.
I asked her, "How do you do it honey? Even mom can't." She replied, "Actually I was going to cry but than I heard you say it's OK so I just thought it's OK." Her words brought such warmth that I feel so loved. There I was inspired by her bravery and strength, and here she is crediting all that to mommy's words of "It's OK". If only, if only it's truly OK. If only I could have the same strength as hers with just hearing those 2 simplest words from the person one loves most.
Char missed having the cake from her fav shop so we ordered one and celebrated ourselves inpatient! Just my princess and me! She was so HAPPY!
My little princess with a swollen leg, pain, fever, dizziness, nausea and constipation issues... And yet, her spirit is amazing and just look at her posing for her mom despite it all!
There is also a video of lil char and jase singing but I'm not able to upload that.
Seriously, lil char is able to grit her teeth and bear with so such sickness and pain that I feel so ashamed of myself feeling so sickly every single off day for 2 weeks and counting.
Love,
Jolene
I asked her, "How do you do it honey? Even mom can't." She replied, "Actually I was going to cry but than I heard you say it's OK so I just thought it's OK."
ReplyDeleteThat right there is the cutest and most precious thing i have ever heard. She is such a strong little girl even though she is going through so much & she looks happy that your by her side. So proud of you and her, glad that your smiling :)
Awww she's lovely! Hope she gets better really soon :D
ReplyDeleteI am amazed to hear how brave Charmaine is despite all the pain she must be going through. I'm years older than her but I don't think I could even cope as well as her in a situation like this. I really hope she gets better soon...someone this young shouldn't have to go through so much pain :(
ReplyDeleteMe too...I feel kind of silly for complaining about my minor health issues. The kidney stone was very painful, but it was only a few hours out of my life...it didn't consume my whole life the way Char's health has dominated her's.
ReplyDeleteCould a neighbor be poisoning her or doing something to make her sick? Some people seem nice, but turn out to be crazy!!!
I'm so happy to see Charmaine so happy! Is she going to be okay? It's really amazing how much willpower people in pain have. It's truly inspiring and makes me try that much harder to stop complaining about little issues I have in my life.
ReplyDeleteJelenaDoll,
ReplyDeleteI think you might have been mistaken. Charmaine is my god daughter and all the captions for the photos are written by her mother Cynthia who is one of my bestest friends. The lady in the picture is mommy Cynthia and not me. Hope I cleared that up. =)
That was the exact same line I quoted to Cynthia saying how that’s one of the most precious thing to hear... The innocence of it all.
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FleurLapin,
Actually she’s not getting better in the sense that her cancer cells are spreading. As for recovery from her surgery, she’s really amazing! I really wonder how she manage to heal herself so quickly.
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Rinny,
I also think so. Sometimes I’m in such pain and discomfort and just feeling so lousy and then I’ll think of how Charmaine could endure so much and feel so ashamed of myself. That said, it doesn’t mean that knowing someone younger than you and in so much pain would not give you the right to feel lousy about yourself. You could still feel free to feel however you feel.
Sometimes I feel little children are more able to withstand all these than adults coz adults tend to think too much and thus creates a lot more negative aura to further perpetuate the bad energy.
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Rick,
Refer to my comment to Rinny as well.
Plus, I think you’ve been watching too much drama. I remember an episode on CSI where the evil neighbour was poisoning his neighbour every day by giving slipping it into her food just so that he could have her apartment or something.
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Irene,
You’re back, sweetie. I’m not too sure if she’s gonna be ok as her cancer cells are spreading but as for recovering from other non-tumour stuff, her willpower is AMAZING!
I certainly can learn something from your little girl. Despite the horrendous ordeal she has been going through (and still is), she is still high-spirited and her smile is so angelic. Often, I find myself easily angered or annoyed by simple, petty or really superficial things that actually don't really matter at all. Your little Charmaine's hope and optimism have taught me perspective. Im very proud of her. I hope she recovers asap.
ReplyDeleteHad to swallow the lump in my throat when I read how she kept her hand very still and shut her eyes. What a brave little girl. Looking at her smile and peace signs, you'd never guess what she was going through.
ReplyDeleteHope you're doing well, yourself, Jo. Re the AFW dresses, yeah, the inner lining are all very short. I've no idea why, I'm sure the girls in China are not That short. I've many classmates from there and they are about my height or only slightly shorter.
Yeah, tights would not be a good idea in Singapore (or Malaysia for that matter). However, I've seen some fashion bloggers there rocking the tights look. I've no idea how they do it. Do show us your haul if you decide to get anything :)
i think she is a very brave little girl~~~and sincerely hope she gets well~~~she is so small and yet so strong~~~she looks happy and optimistic and I think that's a good thing, again i really hope she gets better in the near future~~~
ReplyDeleteJessy
I think you're right--too much TV!!!
ReplyDelete[I'll leave a decent comment on your post later this evening, when I have time to read it all through. Just quickly: I'm glad to see your goddaughter is still so spirited, despite her illness. She's a brave little fighter!]
ReplyDeleteReply: Do they come even more clingy? I've always been in long distance relationships, so I'm not really familiar with the ways of "normal dating". I was already feeling lucky when I heard the ex-boyfriend twice a week -__-
As for the problem with leaving comments, have you tried a different browser yet? I don't know what you use at the moment, but Firefox seems to work for most people.
Blogger's been acting up the past couple of months, and they're still "working on trying to fix it".
Squeeze the Pug, Joey, Jessy,
ReplyDeleteChildren have more willpower to fight than adults as they’re innocent and not aware of the real danger. Some adults simply resign themselves to fate. That’s why most children heal quicker and more easily as their positive outlook would affect their physical well-being positively too.
I often find myself feeling guilty of being mad at so many small stuff compared to the suffering Charmaine is undergoing. Just visited her 2 days ago. She was not her usual cheeky, smiley self. She was all doped up and didn't have the energy to talk at all. After that she fell asleep the whole time I was chatting with her mum. =(
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Rick,
Switch off the TV now! =D
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Bibi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're such a genius! I used Modzilla and the blogger problem is solved! Yippee! I would happily leave comments on all the blogs with embedded comment forms which I've missed for so long. People go trigger-happy, I go keyboard happy.
I used to be in a lot of LDR with the bf and he's now my hubby who's always posted overseas every now and then. That's why I cringe at stories of clingy people.
@Jo: Ahh you bring up a good point about the negative energy; I never really thought about that. Children are so innocent in that they don't have too much stress in their lives, so your point makes a lot of sense.
ReplyDeleteahhh! she's the cutest thing! like one of those kids from a korean drama or something like that.
ReplyDeleteRinny,
ReplyDeleteIt's true! There are stories of children being able to heal faster due to their lack of worry and knowledge of many negative things. Positive thinking attracts positive aura. I practise that a lot too but sometimes it gets very tiring to keep thinking positively.
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abby,
Thank u for your comment. I love it when new people visit. =)